My heart aches reading the letters and cards that my husband sent to me throughout our marriage. Valentines cards, birthday cards, anniversary cards, all confessing the feelings he had for me. But, I have come to find that I feel a very different kind of pain, one far deeper, when I read the cards and … Continue reading Valley Walking: Missing The Way We Loved Them
As much as I try to resist looking at the old photos and videos taken through my marriage, sometimes I just get this urge to look at them again. I feel the need to try and recapture, in my mind, the feelings I had and the life I led before this nightmare began. A few … Continue reading Reality Check: Divorce Hall Of Mirrors
I wonder if you are as excited as I am about the new "Frozen 2" trailer that's been released. As I watched the trailer for the long anticipated sequel, I was struck by the powerful imagery within it. In the trailer we are plunged into a dramatic scene where Elsa (our leading lady) is boldly … Continue reading Valley Walking: Overcoming The Waves
A few months ago, I experienced, for the first time, my first birthday without my husband. It was very strange. If I’m being totally honest, it broke my heart, not waking up to his smile, not getting his card or being wished happy birthday by him. It felt totally alien. My family did all they could … Continue reading Strange New World: Their Birthday
Do you ever feel that you are in a battle? Or, that you are lost in the wilderness? Do you ever feel as though each time you try to get up and find your feet, life has a way of knocking you down again? Throughout this past year I have experienced all of those feelings. There … Continue reading Inspiration Station: Song Of The Week
While some view life as a journey, others view it as a race. Either way, for most people, life seems to move steadily forward as our lives evolve. However, sometimes, events in our lives can make it feel as though we have been dragged right back to the starting line again. Divorce is one such event … Continue reading Reality Check: The Ex Games
I once read a quote that said; "Grief is just love with no place to go." For some reason, since reading this quote, I find that its words often crawl over my mind when I open my eyes in the morning and when I close them at night. I think that perhaps, on some simple … Continue reading Strange New World: Where Do I Put All Of This Love?
“Dorothy now took Toto up solemnly in her arms, and having said one last good-bye she clapped the heels of her shoes together three times, saying... ." A story should follow a pattern, right? A beginning, a middle and an end. So what happens when a story is abruptly cut short before we reach the … Continue reading Valley Walking: Sudden Endings.
Even though my husband went to work very early, I would make him promise to kiss me each day before he left, even if I was still fast asleep. He once told me that he often felt bad waking me but I would insist he did because it made me so sad, the thought of … Continue reading 2018: The Gifts I Wouldn’t Give Back
I felt my anxiety crank up a notch back in the first week of November. My sister and I sat in Starbucks, chatting and sipping on our coffees when suddenly my ears picked up and caught the opening notes of ‘A Holly Jolly Christmas’ as it started to waft through the busy café. Oh no, … Continue reading Strange New World: Deck The Halls