A few months ago, I experienced, for the first time, my first birthday without my husband. It was very strange. If I’m being totally honest, it broke my heart, not waking up to his smile, not getting his card or being wished happy birthday by him. It felt totally alien. My family did all they could … Continue reading Strange New World: Their Birthday
I felt my anxiety crank up a notch back in the first week of November. My sister and I sat in Starbucks, chatting and sipping on our coffees when suddenly my ears picked up and caught the opening notes of ‘A Holly Jolly Christmas’ as it started to waft through the busy café. Oh no, … Continue reading Strange New World: Deck The Halls
This week I would like to share a song with you that is deeply personal, not only to me, but also to my family. My mum lost her first husband at a very young age. I have grown up in awe of my mum’s strength and the way she rebuilt her life after his death. … Continue reading Inspiration Station: Song Of The Week
“Dad don’t cry! You’re gonna make me cry! Oh no, my make up!” I flapped my hands in front of my mascara drenched eyelashes. I took one final glance in the mirror. I looked like a bride. I looked exactly how I had pictured I would look, ethereal and glowing. My bridesmaids had gone ahead with … Continue reading Strange New World: The First Wedding Anniversary
The wedding ring, a band of gold, placed on our hands the day we exchanged those vows. Vows to love each other, to cherish one another and to commit to each other always. I wore my ring through sickness, through laughter, through tears, through sleepy Saturday mornings, through our big adventures and our difficult trials. It … Continue reading Strange New World: Removing The Wedding Ring
I recently went on my first holiday without my husband. I have to be honest, it was something I was not really looking forward to and yet needed desperately. I longed to be in a different environment, to have a break from the momentum of the divorce, the tension and the sorrow. I craved seeing … Continue reading Strange New World: The First Holiday Without Them
I’m back in the home we have lived in and built together, back in the kitchen that we loved cooking in together. The front door opens and suddenly there you are. You walk in from work and kiss me hello, softly, the way you did each evening. I can smell you, touch you and sense your … Continue reading Strange New World: When You Dream Of Them
Feeling lonely when you are actually alone makes sense but isn’t it strange how we can feel even more lonely when out in public. It is possible to be in a room filled with people and yet feel more alone than ever. Even though I may be surrounded by people and distractions, thoughts of the person … Continue reading Strange New World: Alone In A Crowd
How dangerous can a TV commercial be you ask? Very! I answer. TV commercials may last only 30 seconds on average but brands try to cram as much emotion and feeling as they can into those 30 seconds. They want to evoke a reaction from you, for you to form a connection to their brand. … Continue reading Strange New World: The Dangers of TV Commercials
During my marriage, one of my absolute favourite parts of the week, was Saturday mornings. I couldn't wait for them; to have quality time with my husband, chilling out together, having breakfast in bed, catching up, laughing together and just being in our own little world. It is probably one of the things I miss … Continue reading Strange New World: Saturday Mornings
Devoted and Divorced 