Even though my husband went to work very early, I would make him promise to kiss me each day before he left, even if I was still fast asleep. He once told me that he often felt bad waking me but I would insist he did because it made me so sad, the thought of … Continue reading 2018: The Gifts I Wouldn’t Give Back
I felt my anxiety crank up a notch back in the first week of November. My sister and I sat in Starbucks, chatting and sipping on our coffees when suddenly my ears picked up and caught the opening notes of ‘A Holly Jolly Christmas’ as it started to waft through the busy café. Oh no, … Continue reading Strange New World: Deck The Halls
A few weeks ago, as I drifted about my kitchen making myself a quick bite to eat and preparing to chill out on my sofa for a lazy night in, I just so happened to glance over towards a particular spot on my kitchen floor. Within an instant I felt the atmosphere change around me … Continue reading Valley Walking: The Ache Of Abandonment
This week I would like to share a song with you that is deeply personal, not only to me, but also to my family. My mum lost her first husband at a very young age. I have grown up in awe of my mum’s strength and the way she rebuilt her life after his death. … Continue reading Inspiration Station: Song Of The Week
“Dad don’t cry! You’re gonna make me cry! Oh no, my make up!” I flapped my hands in front of my mascara drenched eyelashes. I took one final glance in the mirror. I looked like a bride. I looked exactly how I had pictured I would look, ethereal and glowing. My bridesmaids had gone ahead with … Continue reading Strange New World: The First Wedding Anniversary
When the one we love leaves us, it can feel utterly unfathomable. Despite the awful shock that we have suffered, we can still have these intense feelings of love that hasn't wavered, this fierce sense of loyalty that remains and to us, the deep-rooted bond we have developed can remain as present as it ever was. But … Continue reading Reality Check: Doing All The Brain Work
Divorce can feel like being on a sinking ship. My husband abandoned the ship before I was even aware there was a gaping gouge in it's hull. When the damage was revealed to me, I started frantically trying to save it, keep it from going under, keep us afloat. As our ship began it’s certain … Continue reading Valley Walking: The Life Raft
There are so many difficult things I have been forced to face throughout the loss of my marriage. During this time, it has felt like a glaring spotlight has been shone on my life, my relationship and my identity. It has illuminated all of the flaws and faults, the weaknesses and mistakes. One of the … Continue reading Reality Check: Decoding The Dynamic
Inspiration Station - A weekly quote, song or video to inspire you. I've been listening to this song a lot lately. I am working so hard to rebuild my life. I can relate to this song, because rebuilding and living without the person you love can feel like drowning. This is a song about hope, … Continue reading Inspiration Station: Song Of The Week
Would you ever take him back? It's a question I get asked a lot. My marriage meant everything to me, as did my husband. I loved him so deeply and couldn't even bear to think of a world without him. I know, without any doubt in my mind, I loved him so much that I … Continue reading Reality Check: Clinging To A Love That Hurts
Devoted and Divorced 